理由：1. I admit that I have serious pornographic thoughts; 2. I admit that there are residual male chauvinist ideas in my mind; 3. I have never denied that women are oppressed.
The comrades who criticize me also have their reasons and evidence.
Reason: 1. Only one comrade used dialectical materialism to analyze my two sides—-disgust with oppression and oppressing women, but even he blurred my primary and secondary aspects.
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Besides that comrade, no one has affirmed that I am a revolutionary with flaws; the comrades only seized my shortcomings to make a big fuss, carry out “cruel struggle, merciless attack,” is my main aspect a revolutionary or a shameless hypocrite double-dealer? I say “history will judge my correctness or wrongness” precisely because of this. I still believe my main aspect is a revolutionary, and my secondary aspects include serious pornographic thoughts, residual male chauvinist ideas, temper tantrums, suspicious personality, and laziness. Mr. Lu Xun once said: “A soldier with flaws is still a soldier,” I believe I am still a “soldier,” not a “fly.”
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Even outstanding revolutionaries, like the first duty officer Comrade Fenghuo, have evaluated me as a “lecher,” and later said I was “cunning” and “slippery,” which is tantamount to labeling me first, and I obviously do not accept that.
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“Revolution is not a banquet,” I know very well that I have never gone on strike for workers’ wages (because I have served as a waiter so many times, and my wages have never been delayed), and which comrade has accused me of “just scolding a few teachers, every student has done it”? I want to ask this comrade, dare to openly promote communism, criticize bureaucratism, and negotiate with bureaucrats at the risk of being expelled or blacklisted by the entire Chongqing school system, and ultimately get a day off (this is doubtful)—is this “just”? I admit there may be some petty-bourgeois fanaticism, but the overall direction is revolutionary action. Not to mention I have written revolutionary slogans in the toilet, which are countless. This comrade vaguely gives me a feeling of showing off credentials. My “articles” are not particularly good, but I have indeed written some things, all in my notebook, some published. It’s nonsense to say I “haven’t written articles.”
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The comrade who posted a picture claiming that Lafite is very pornographic. I have never seen fan art of Lafite made by individuals or official sources, nor have I followed official accounts. I only play the game, and Lafite in the game does not show her chest or hips. I admit she does show her shoulders and has some erotic elements. I have serious pornographic thoughts.
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Some comrades, maybe the majority or maybe the minority, are probably because they have been criticized or are unhappy with their life or work, and therefore attack me “with words and deeds.” This is not “learning from mistakes to prevent future errors and curing the disease,” but mixed with personal motives.
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Of those three points, I am partially satisfied with two: I have studied Engels and later revolutionaries’ discussions on women’s rights; I have worked and interacted with women while doing farm work and serving as a waiter, but unfortunately, I did not deeply feel the oppression of women.
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For a person who sincerely confesses their personal history to strangers like you, this is similar to an example everyone has heard: Zhu De, as a warlord, painstakingly went to Germany to join the Chinese Communist Party. But the results for us are worlds apart. Naturally, I feel upset, and I have also spoken somewhat improperly during conversations with comrades.
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Regarding the “The Book of Songs” phrase “The gentle and virtuous lady, a good match for a gentleman.” These two lines come from folk songs and do not necessarily represent the slave-owning class.
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My situation with comrades is very similar to the anti-Rightist movement in the Soviet area and the Anti-Rightist Campaign expansion in 1957. I remind the comrades.
After thinking for several days, after experiencing those in my childhood, I developed the idea of ranking people into three, six, nine, etc., and also the decayed idea that “they can bully me, so I can oppress others.” As for playing “Azur Lane,” it was really recommended to me by classmates, and I only played it. I don’t understand how that objectifies women, and over these years, I’ve played less on average. I also don’t understand why calling comrades “artificial intelligence” triggers public outrage, which is nothing compared to your accusations of “arrogance” and “cunning.” Moreover, I have no subjective intention to insult the comrades, but you do. I hope we can once again study the “On the Correct Handling of Contradictions Among the People,” discuss how to “learn from past mistakes to prevent future errors and cure the disease,” and distinguish between different types of contradictions, rather than possibly being cowardly toward enemies and heavy-handed with comrades. Over these years, I’ve been busy with academic pursuits, with low theoretical level. I’ve mentioned multiple times that I “slipped,” mainly because I want to consider the overall situation, and I know that comrades have been engaged in intense ideological struggles recently. So, to consolidate unity, I chose to “slip,” but I really don’t understand why I am considered to have serious male chauvinist ideas and low theoretical level, so I naturally think that prostitution is immoral and have no other thoughts. Why am I only “thinking it’s immoral”? Everything should be reasoned. I also don’t understand the objectification of women; I can independently think that women selling their bodies is like slave trading. How could I objectify women? Personally, I have never relied on class status or appearance to date even a single girlfriend. Besides family members, I’ve never touched a woman’s hand. How could I oppress them? And in fact, some male comrades have already done so, but have they been subjected to such fierce criticism as mine? Honestly, if I were a “lecher” or a “double-dealer,” I wouldn’t have taken the revolutionary path, nor would I have believed in communism since I was 13 or 14, and I would have betrayed the revolution long ago, betrayed the revolution to oppress others, and turned to neoliberalism. I’ve seen many such cases, including two middle school classmates and two high school classmates. Regarding the comrades’ mention that “all videos need to be approved by Zhongxiu,” and “those uploaders have issues,” this is not valid. It involves the art of struggle, like the Bolsheviks’ notification to participate in the Russian State Duma, which is also a nod from the ruling class but can contribute to the revolution. Bilibili has a “Lao Fangtou” who I think belongs to “legitimate struggle,” and his latest video also shows his stance. Others include “Xuan Mao under the Red Chamber” and “Qing Luo classmate,” both oppose revisionism; the latter claims to be a democratic socialist, lacks understanding of the first thirty years, but the former is not a big problem. These two are leftist representatives in the discussion of revisionism a few months ago. Also, there are “Zhu Bukefu,” who discusses the Cultural Revolution history, and “Wei Jing Chao Hui (female),” who talks about agricultural collectivization, both relatively reliable. Some comrades may think I call myself “Maoist” and “arrogant,” but I do not oppose the theory of continuing revolution under proletarian dictatorship, nor do I oppose the Great Proletarian Cultural Revolution, so how am I not a Maoist?
