Here, I mainly address the four points raised by Comrade Fenghuo, discussing whether I am truly avoiding or just pretending to avoid. Let’s see if I am genuinely avoiding or just pretending, and whether some hats can be placed on my head.
Point 1, claiming that I agree with and uphold male chauvinist pornographic ideas. Which eye did you see me agree with and uphold? I repeatedly emphasize that I admit I have serious pornographic thoughts, and there are remnants of male chauvinist ideas in my mind. What I do not agree with is the statement that I have serious male chauvinist ideas; I have explained many times that this is like the Russian emancipation of serfs in 1861—before 1861, serfdom was a systemic major problem, and after that, although it still existed and remnants remained, it was no longer systemic. This “reform” point, for me, was when I came into contact with communism; my old ideas had not been completely cleared out, but I can’t say they were entirely gone. I not only support the women’s liberation movement but have also made minor contributions, which I won’t elaborate on. Even calling it “minor” feels like flattery, but I speak honestly. Also, I deleted “Azure Lane” and pornographic software long ago; this is action. You ask me to clear out pornographic thoughts, and I have already explained my development process regarding pornographic ideas. Moreover, the so-called hats of male chauvinist ideas and pornographic thoughts are honestly disclosed and handed over to comrades. Some comrades say that personal history disclosure is necessary, so I want to ask, can I hide some parts of my history that are unfavorable to myself? Before writing the second article, I saw someone analyze themselves, admitting to having had wrong thoughts of patronizing prostitutes and playing “Azure Lane” porn games. I could have hidden this, but I chose to honestly disclose it. Not only do you think it is justified, but you also do not need materialist dialectics to analyze me.
Point 2, accusing me of showing off “capital” with a bourgeois individualist mentality and looking down on the proletariat. This is completely unfounded and a baseless accusation. I have repeatedly emphasized that I do not intend to flaunt my seniority; it was only when comrades asked about my specific situation of rebellion that I mentioned it. I also truthfully said that I was aware of the need for labor reform since I was 14 years old—does that have any problem? It was also because you questioned my personal history that I disclosed it. I want to ask Comrade Fenghuo, did I say that I am proud of attending “the top schools in Chongqing”? I said that I took the risk of being punished or even expelled from “top schools in Chongqing” to rebel, to illustrate that I sacrificed my personal interests at my age to do so. When I said that I mocked “people with unfulfilled lives,” I did not mock anyone. My original words were: “Comrades might be criticizing me out of past criticism, feeling upset, or dissatisfaction with life or work,” which was not meant to be mocking. It was honest. As for flaunting seniority, the person questioning me, “Have you ever written articles? Have you ever participated in strikes for wages?” is the real flaunter of seniority.
Point 3, claiming I have a strong revolutionary opportunism mentality and compare myself to Zhu De. This is also a baseless accusation. I have already said below the article about revolutionary predecessors that before reading that article, I only knew Zhu De was criticized during the Cultural Revolution; I did not know the details. I mistakenly thought he was just a revolutionary with flaws. Moreover, what I said is true: Zhu De indeed first joined the Communist Party through Chen Duxiu, then went to France, and finally joined the party in Germany. Have you seen anyone before the Great Revolution opportunistically joining the Chinese Communist Party? When I say I am opportunistic in revolution, I mean during the low tide of international communist movements, in the second-largest imperialist country in the world, I was opportunistic in revolution? I want to ask, why opportunistic in revolution? Why betray my own class? Why, after witnessing four classmates betray the revolution in five years, do I still dedicate myself to the communist cause? Why do I come to this forum to read revolutionary articles? Why have I persisted in promoting communism these five years? Answer me, “Look into my eyes!” If I lacked firm will, I would have long been in the bourgeoisie. Why did I go through labor reform? Honestly share my labor reform experience, or do you think I made it up? Another comrade labeled me with “positivism,” though I don’t understand what positivism means, but it won’t defeat me!
Point 4, accusing me of playing with bourgeois human nature theory. It is you who say I “made up” my experiences and even label me with a hierarchy system. Do I need to counterattack? Moreover, I have already explained my source: “Number One Service Worker” refers to Comrade Yang Daoyuan of the Hubei Revolutionary Rebellion Faction, and Kuai Dafu may have used it too. Regarding the hierarchy label, Comrade Fenghuo also said, “Fabricate a ‘Number One Service Worker’ out of thin air.” Is it true that I fabricated it? Should Comrade Fenghuo apologize for this baseless labeling? Do you not play with bourgeois human nature theory? Otherwise, why would you accuse me without investigation or verification? People should have a conscience.
Casual talk: Comrade Marsh Warrior, I apologize for calling your name directly. If I answered your questions well, good—that’s “positivism.” If I answered poorly, then I just gave you another label. What can I do? Only keep silent. Regarding my remnants of male chauvinist ideas and serious pornographic thoughts, I have repeatedly apologized and expressed remorse. These four points are like comrades criticizing my small “program,” with only the first point being largely justified; the others are all unfounded. And you say I am making baseless accusations? You are the real hat-makers, truly the hat king. Isn’t this exaggeration? Moreover, I just realized that not only what I say on this forum may be subject to review, but it might also be edited by administrators. I haven’t checked before whether my words were taken out of context or altered to fit your needs. I can’t say for sure, since the original is in your hands, and I have no backup. I also kindly suggested before that we could jointly study “On the Correct Handling of Contradictions Among the People.” If that doesn’t work, I can add you on WeChat or QQ, or you can add me, and we can find a time during Qingming or Labor Day to meet face-to-face and reach a consensus. One issue has been unresolved for a week, and I am truly exhausted. Other comrades have said some very unpleasant things. The title “Pride and Prejudice” describes you. If I was wrong, I admit my mistake and will correct it. But some of your nonsensical statements, I have never seen you apologize or correct. When criticizing others, you get very enthusiastic, but you don’t criticize yourselves.
