由于我是资产阶级家庭的孩子，不愁吃不愁喝的家庭情况，所以我的生活是十分脱离实践的，并且小子阶级的思想在我的思想里是处在主导地位上的，又因为初三的学历使我不能去社会实践，不能走进工人大众的集体去是我认为我的思想斗争是极为艰难的并且有接下来的几个问题：一.淫乱思想的挥之不去 二.关于毛主席的不清醒认识 三.小资产思想对旧世界的留恋和反抗 四.左倾机会主义错误
首先，一.淫乱事项的挥之不去
这个问题我在自我介绍中说过我的发展历程，可总结为“进朱者赤，进墨者黑。”一开始我对“性”的观念是模糊不清的，在机缘巧合之下我接触到了这些东西，对它也有清楚的认识，在前一段时间戒色的工作是极为顺利的，由于学习马列毛主义使我放下了观看色情的想法，但我并未从根本上去消灭它，论坛上的同志其实已经给我讲清楚了黄片的实质，但在后面的学习中没有放在心上导致放松了警惕，更是在后面关于“毛主席的私生活”的问题上出现了严重的误判，使我彻底迷茫放下了所有警惕，是我的小资产阶级思想有了可乘之机，占据了我思想的主导，让我的色淫思想乘虚而入出现复辟，但看到那些女性受到奸辱就让我气不打一处来，让我十分的愤怒，由于我对毛主席错误认识已经有了清醒的判断，所以没有什么可以阻挡我学习先进知识的脚步，现在我着手进行对我的色情思想进行残酷打击，彻底将它根除。我认为进行色情思想的斗争方法是深刻意识到它的危害与背后的庞大的反动组织压迫女性的事实，并大肆宣扬欺辱她们让她们快乐的这种及其反动的话语，来攻击女性，不把女性当人看，以及人压迫人的现状。我们作为马克思主义者，就更不能放任这些攻击女性的话与不管，要向那些宣扬法西斯男权的畜生及予最严厉的打击。
二.管于对毛主席的认识不清
在上个周六，在同志的审时度势下，决心背着父母买手机，事后他给我设置好了论坛和油管，由于个人原因在看油管的时候并没有加以警惕，并没有意识到上面的视频大多数都是自由派的发言，论述政治的东西更是鱼龙混杂，存在着大量的反动言论，在这之中我被“毛主席的私生活”这一标题标题的文章所吸引，内容让我大为震惊，在我的印象里毛主席是伟大的领袖，毛主席说的话几乎很少有问题，而且全都无疑是正确的是为无产阶级利益着想，是为集体利益着想的，但这个视频传播的恰恰相反，她把伟大领袖毛主席描写成“皇帝”，过着淫乱不堪的生活，使我一年积累的信仰有了坍塌的风险，让我生出来共产党从一开始就是错的和文化大革命为了毛主席的“私欲”等这种及其荒诞的想法，这无疑是错误的，并且这对我产生了极为恶劣的，使我小资产阶级思想复辟，淫乱思想复辟，出现了如上述问题一的情况，周一我将这个事向同志讲了一下，他表现的极为生气说这些自由派的东西你也信，我认为应当将这件事向论坛上的同志说一下，在整理文件的时候突然发现了其中的那些逆天言论如“共产共妻” “斯大林包养歌手妇女” “ 马克思有私生子”等，这些都是资产阶级为抹黑马克思主义所编造的荒乱的“传说”，使我立刻明白了这篇文章的用意，用批判的眼光去看待它，虽然已经看清了它想表达的荒诞意图，但其中的有些事情我还是没有清楚的知识储备去反驳它如“贺子珍为毛主席9年生10胎”，“后看上了江青并与她同居，并结婚10年间他们是亲密的夫妇，10年后他们在政治上互相利用”这两个问题，还希望同志们可以多多为我解答，这将更有利于我的学习任务，感谢。
三. 小资阶级思想对旧世界的留恋与反抗
由于我的生活是极为脱产的，以寄生父母为经济来源，所以关于这一方面表现的并不是生产关系的问题，主要是反抗父亲和老九的压迫，在这一方面我是深有感触的（例子我取最近的）,这几个月由于上了初三父亲对我使用手机时间管的特别严，在我以前的手机上设了时间管控并且可以在他的手机上看到我手机的使用情况，因此引出了不少麻烦，故出下策买了一个手机；在管制我期间，对我进行精神“P U A”,妄想让我鄙视工人，这一点在自我介绍中有提到。关于老师，就昨天而言，因为作业没有写两道大题所以被老九叫上讲台问我为什么没写，由于在之前我还在投机学业的时候就对这个老九就极为的不满，并且她给我的印象是极为恶劣的，于是擅自起来反抗，老九扬言要与我的父亲一起镇压我。关于留恋，这个话题在我身上反应最为明显的是打游戏、低级趣味和听伤春悲秋得歌曲，目前来看重心并不在打游戏上，这也得易于父亲对我的管控，由于在学校里周围多是关于后两者的话题，所以影响较大，只能希望换位可以给我换一个文明点的环境。
四.左倾机会主义错误
这在我身上最为典型，就拿问题三管于反抗老九，首先前提是我在未与同志们商量的情况下擅自举行的，并且在斗争的过程中不能做到有理有据条理清晰，使得我被老九问的手忙脚乱，无从下手只能继续进行无意义的斗争，后来老九让我回位，但我赌气一直站着直到下课，过程中同志给我传纸条让我不要进行这种没有组织的反抗，我是认识到这个错误的，但我刚愎自用不听，再加上想要用小资产阶级的眼观来达到数学课可以自由支配时间的想法，使我弄得很僵，最后老九声称要去找我父亲，班主任对我进行谈话，由于已经无计可施，于是做了“妥协”，谎称是受家里的影响，给父亲说是想要有一个证明自己有学习能力的机会并且本深度老师有怨言故导至如此，他给我说让我好好想想去给老师道歉，但我与同志商量决定不予道谦。这是最近刚发生的典型的左倾机会主义错误，给我们两人带来了巨大的麻烦，我应当严格对我进行反思。不过在我父亲那边我认为处理的较为妥善以没有暴露政治立场；二，明却表达我要自行去练习大题的心愿。但左的错误还是极为严重的。
我没有合适的方法，去解决这些问题，并且上述问题的解决方法只是我个人想法，以及一些问题还请论坛上的同志们多多指出，我一定加以改正。
Due to limited time, I worked overnight. There were some technical issues, and I apologize for any typos. If there are any sentences that are unclear or poorly expressed, please point them out and I will revise and respond. Thank you very much (since I am a student, I will reply after 8:00).
I have corrected the format for you. It’s getting late now, I suggest you rest early, and when you have free time, communicate more with everyone.
Por cierto, ¿a qué exactamente se refiere con gustos vulgares?
I think here there is a relationship of inclusion with the later songs about mourning spring and autumn, and listening to this kind of song is relatively primary. Because I need to carry out a struggle with my own thoughts, I have set my circle of friends very small. Apart from comrades and some classmates I cannot avoid contact with, the rest of my classmates try to avoid contact as much as possible. But the problem lies with these unavoidable classmates (the classmates around my seat). Most of them really like listening to these songs, and I also had an interest in this area before, which naturally influenced my recent mental state; additionally, there are some fun-loving people in the class who like to find fun in others or themselves. As for issues related to obscenity, I already have a high level of ideological awareness, so hearing about these is very clear-headed. There might also be some about games, but these three points constitute a smaller proportion, mainly the first point.
What kind of songs, what content, what themes, and can you elaborate on the game-related ones?
Songs that give people optimism are rare, mainly love songs, and this type of music often revolves around themes of depression and pessimism, such as “Mirage” and “Chengdu.” Most of the time, games are about escaping from dark zones. Because I had a long gaming experience before, a certain classmate often shows off that he has obtained several big golds.
I think this matter can be discussed in more detail.
I sincerely apologize for not explaining some things clearly due to being in a hurry. My defeat in the struggle with Lao Jiu was purely due to my stubbornness. The cause of the incident was that I did not write the math problem, and Lao Jiu believed that with my ability, I could have completed it. However, since it would have been a waste of time, I decided not to write it. As a result, I was called to the podium and asked why I didn’t write it. I argued with Lao Jiu about this matter (I believe I was within the scope of petty bourgeois ideology, mainly because: 1. I strongly disagreed when the teacher suddenly changed in the third year of junior high; 2. the teacher generalized and denied my efforts in class; 3. he often looked at others with a very uncomfortable gaze, implying contempt). The main point was to ask Lao Jiu not to include me in the list of students required to do large questions. Although the form of protest was excessive, I succeeded in the struggle, but I was always in a subordinate position. During the process, due to nervousness, my reasoning became chaotic, and I was led by the nose. Afterwards, my comrades criticized my leftist errors and suggested I “compromise” temporarily, mainly due to pressure from the class teacher and my father. I had no choice but to “compromise.” This incident was another result of left opportunism errors following my struggle with my father. Although I now have a clear understanding of my mistakes—recognizing that the reasons were leftism, lack of clarity in reasoning, and failure to consult with comrades—there is still only an abstract direction for improvement. I hope comrades can offer some suggestions.
Isn’t this just the臭老九 (Old Nine) messing around? Then we should fight against臭老九. Enduring silently only makes such people more arrogant. Moreover, the incident happened suddenly and there was no condition to negotiate. If there were to be negotiations, it would basically mean defaulting first and then discussing. The only way to default is to admit fault, which is essentially not fighting. As the situation escalates,臭老九 going to the parents is also臭老九 trying to use the parents to pressure others, which I don’t think is a leftist mistake. I feel that calling you leftist is wrong because in this situation, so-called non-leftism is surrender. I think your comrade has a big problem, possibly related to his recent life situation. Do you know his recent condition?
That’s how it is. Tz may have made mistakes due to a lack of strategy and experience in the struggle, and that is understandable and can be improved. But this itself is the old Ninth’s prior suppression and repression; your counterattack is correct.
Indeed, first is the question of whether to fight, and then how to fight. TZ’s resistance in this matter is completely justified, and to be honest, he hasn’t engaged in any radical “leftist” actions beyond realistic conditions. The escalation of the situation later was not caused by his excessive radicalism; in fact, it was because teachers had no work left and could only rely on parents. Now, it is entirely appropriate to seize the opportunity and consider the next steps in responding to parents and teachers, rather than accusing him of leaning left.
I’m not sure about his condition
I think that if you don’t understand, you should care about the other person’s living conditions and thoughts; these two are generally connected. Labeling normal resistance as leftist leaning actually reflects a change in their stance.