Preface: Comrades, I returned to school today. Because the school is far from home, I need to live on campus, so I can no longer participate in forum activities frequently. I previously promised to write weekly journals after returning to school to share my life with comrades; now I am posting here to record my September diary, mainly documenting my school life and ideological struggles, and also sharing some information about classmates, Lao Jiu, and bureaucrats. I will continue to post school diaries until I graduate.
Next, I will reintroduce the basic situation of the school: This school is a “better” public middle school in the prefecture-level area, but due to the extreme corruption and incompetence of local bureaucrats (such as leaders taking revenge on those dissatisfied with their “policies,” leaders parachuting into positions, school funding issues, etc.), the school can no longer cultivate the so-called elite students from Qingbei (Tsinghua and Peking University) who are good at opportunism (as it used to); it also suppresses and disciplines Lao Jiu everywhere, which has caused some Lao Jiu to be dissatisfied with the school, not to mention the students who are oppressed.
Last semester, I was the Youth League branch secretary and math class representative in my middle school class, and I was quite proud of myself at that time; now I realize that being a lackey for Lao Jiu not only consolidates the school’s dictatorship but also continuously increases oppression of students, not to mention eroding my revolutionary spirit. So as soon as I return, I will immediately resign from these two positions and continue my ideological struggle from there.
Next, I will introduce two students from the left circle: one is A, whom I mentioned in my self-introduction, and the other is B, who is now in the same class as A (they are both in a liberal arts class, while I am in a physics and chemistry class). Both of them belong to the left circle, aware of the social reality of the restoration of the middle school, and in the past, I often discussed social issues with them, but neither knew how the revolution should happen, like many in the left circle, they fantasized about the spontaneous arrival of the masses’ revolution. Now I understand clearly that the revolution must have a vanguard of the proletariat, and the association is working hard to establish this vanguard. However, A currently has some opportunistic thoughts about studies and is less willing to participate in the revolution than before; the two of them also have close relationships with other left circle members at school and still hold a lot of petty bourgeois ideas (such as making some vulgar jokes about the Boxers and the Gang of Four); importantly, we are still unfamiliar with each other’s family backgrounds, only considering each other as acquaintances. After returning to school, I will communicate more with them to get to know each other better, and then persuade them to leave the left circle and promote their participation in the forum, etc.
What is B’s situation now? A wants to speculate on investment and academics, what about B?
Could you please provide some specific information about the other person?
Another person should actually have great ambitions for speculative studies as well; for example, he once said the petty bourgeois nonsense of “attending university while fighting,” which aligns him with A.
Now A is the study committee member of their class, B is the vice class monitor, and has gone over to be a lackey for Lao Jiu.
What kind of mindset did Northern Wind have when becoming the party branch and Youth League branch secretary and class representative at school, and how was the relationship with students in the class in the past? Generally speaking, being a class representative means helping Lao Jiu to supervise the students.
I joined the Youth League Committee in the first semester of my third year of junior high, which was November 2023; as for becoming the Youth League Branch Secretary of the class, that happened at the beginning of this spring semester: at that time, the homeroom teacher was the same “Old Nine” who confiscated my book in my self-introduction. She let the students freely fill in what class cadre (lackey) they wanted to be, and I impulsively wrote down “Youth League Secretary.” Looking back now, it was just my petty vanity acting up. Later, by midterm, the math teacher Old Nine wanted to add a class representative, so I “volunteered” and promised Old Nine that I would submit homework on time. Old Nine liked my lackey attitude, so it was approved. Later, when I collected homework as the class representative, I often scolded classmates who didn’t submit on time, which perfectly showed how I was abusing my power as a lackey back then.
Okay, I came back yesterday, and today I will update the diary for everyone. Since my personal time at school is fragmented and short, when I write the diary at school, I only briefly record various events in chronological order, and then I do a second round of processing at home before posting it on the forum.
August 30
This afternoon, I went to school with my grandmother and sister. After tidying up the dormitory and saying goodbye to them, I went to the classroom, where a few classmates were already there. I happened to hear that the school had added facial recognition payment, so I went with H, the top student in the class, to inquire at the electricity payment office. On the way, when I was talking with him, we started from computers and then extended to his family situation: his parents run a mobile phone franchise store (the brands are OPPO and Vivo) (petty bourgeoisie). When I asked him if he still wanted to be an astronomer as he had said before, he told me that employment in astronomy is difficult now, so he is considering studying science and engineering to find a job in that field. I realized his opportunistic mindset is very deep, going with the flow; I will communicate with him again when conditions permit.
Not long after we returned to the classroom, someone played reactionary singers Jay Chou and Joker Xue’s songs. The most disgusting was Joker Xue’s “Late Late,” which is full of shameless and blatant bourgeois patriarchal ideology (because the main content is about a fanatical patriarchal man oppressing a woman, and some nonsense about “love but cannot have,” which is really nonsense!). It was played by someone called Y. (A brief introduction to Y: he is a bourgeois art lover who takes every opportunity to play reactionary singers’ poisonous songs and often openly sings some fragments in class.) While reading “Five Philosophical Articles by Chairman Mao” at my seat, some classmates were still copying homework.
Then a classmate C voluntarily came to sit next to me. When we chatted, he casually mentioned Bo Xilai. Later, when I asked about it, I learned that his classmate had actively climbed over the firewall to “see something new.” I explained to him that Bo Xilai was removed from power due to his conflict with Xi Jinping, and he agreed. I also told him about the Jiangyou incident, and he was shocked by the brutality of the revisionists and the information blockade. By the way, I learned that his father is a mechanic and his mother is a service worker.
After dinner in the evening, I called my father (because he demanded that I call him whenever I have time at school). He told me I “must focus my energy on studying.” I said okay, but I will never obey blindly!
The new head teacher came around six in the evening. She is the math teacher who came down from the senior third grade this year, replacing the previous one. Her speech fully reflected her reactionary nature: things like obeying discipline, survival of the fittest, vigorously engaging in opportunistic academics, etc., really disgusting! She also read out a notice from the school grade group about strict management of mobile phones, increasing the punishment for bringing phones. But the good news is, I successfully resigned as math class representative! However, I have not yet resigned as the Youth League secretary because the new math teacher is paying more attention to me, and resigning from the Youth League secretary now would arouse her suspicion; besides, the Youth League secretary position is very free with almost zero oppression on students currently. But I must resign from that position later because the selection of opportunists will start soon.
In the evening, while distributing books in the classroom, we class cadres (running dogs) were called to the office, where detailed tasks were assigned to us; she also appointed several other class cadres for other affairs (computers, dormitory). Her dictatorship will undoubtedly be more reactionary and stronger than last semester’s head teacher (who is still the geography teacher).
After returning to the dormitory, I went to find B and met B’s classmate (is it A?). He told me that B dislocated his neck and is now hospitalized, and may not return for another week.
In the evening, I chatted for a while with C (who is also my dorm roommate) across the bed rail and then went to sleep.
Can we reduce the frequency a bit? It feels like talking to him is pointless. I could use studying as an excuse and say I’m too busy to call anymore.
This week it has been decreasing, and when explaining to him, I said there are too many people making calls, taking showers, and even doing homework.
It is recommended to continue using various abbreviations and code names for classmates in the future. Direct name abbreviations are difficult for everyone to remember and may also carry potential risks.
If your dad keeps calling you, you can ignore him.
This should only be content for one day; is the original poster still writing more?
I have been writing every day from the 31st until yesterday, and now I am editing the remaining five articles.
Okay, since Comrade Swamp suggested that I use code names instead of abbreviations, I will use A, B, and C to refer to classmates from now on, with other additions to follow later.
Okay, since Comrade Swamp suggested that I use code names instead of abbreviations, from now on I will use A to refer to wx, B to refer to txc, C to refer to czj, and others will be added later.
Thank you, Comrade Principal.
That fascist petit-bourgeois is truly shameless, publishing my article! As other comrades have said, why doesn’t he go look at theoretical articles or work diaries on the forum, but insists on finding articles criticizing reactionary games by the association? Because he just wants to attract attention; he neither can nor dares to publish theoretical articles for others to seriously read. He acts as a vanguard for the revisionists; if possible, he would definitely dox me and hand me over to the revisionist police. I don’t need to say more about such a person—he is nothing but a future White Bandit Army!
After the north wind, be careful on the forum as well; don’t get yourself exposed.
September 1st
In the morning, there was the school’s flag-raising ceremony and opening ceremony. As a school feature, a class of first-year high school students who had just finished military training served as the flag guard and raised the flag. Following that were speeches by bureaucrats and sycophantic students, full of the stench of bureaucratic rhetoric about “family and country,” “great ambitions,” and “comprehensive (useless) development.” What was infuriating was the nonsense the worthless principal said: “The right thing must be done at the right time,” urging us to engage in opportunistic academic pursuits. I refuse to partake in such opportunistic schemes! The most infuriating thing was those leaders sitting up there for an hour while making students stand below for an hour—how arrogant they were!
Then came Chinese class. The Chinese teacher lectured extensively on Hemingway’s iceberg theory in The Old Man and the Sea, saying that “one-eighth is visible above the water, and seven-eighths are beneath, leaving infinite space for readers’ imagination.” Personally, I feel that the Chinese reading and appreciation questions in the standardized exams love this kind of thing: when issuing standardized test papers, they pick some obscure bourgeois articles and then force students to analyze feelings, intentions, meanings, etc. In reality, this is a form of coercion, training students to be bourgeois lackeys who only know how to nod and guess others’ intentions! The reactionary nature of the school is evident. After three more classes, it was supposed to be self-study, but the math teacher occupied the class to lecture on exercises—utterly unreasonable!
In the afternoon was psychology class. The psychology teacher started by saying, “Second-year students’ mental health should be a key focus,” which is truly self-contradictory! Isn’t the brutal oppression in the school precisely what causes students to develop disgust toward opportunistic academic pursuits and even life itself, which they call “students having mental health problems”? Then the psychology teacher brought out some OH cards, claiming that the cards we randomly guess can reveal our subconscious intuition—pure idealistic nonsense!
During the afternoon self-study, I was reading On Practice, where it says, “Marxist philosophy considers the most important thing… is to actively transform the world based on the understanding of objective laws.” This made me reflect; it emphasizes that theory must be tested in practice. Relating this to my ideological struggle, I must continuously improve my theoretical level and use theory to fight against bourgeois literary and artistic ideas.
In the evening self-study, my deskmate C was reading the September issue of Special Attention and showed me an article describing a murder case that happened in Shanghai before the Japanese imperialists surrendered in 1945 (the murderer was a housewife who was deceived into becoming the wife of a beastly victim who abused her and drained her assets; unable to endure, she killed the beast; later, after liberation, she lived a good life and even had her own name). He asked me, “Is women’s liberation too extreme?” I answered that first, women striving for liberation is entirely justified. Some petty-bourgeois women initiated reform movements like “gender equality” and “no workplace discrimination,” but due to their class limitations, they cannot propose revolutionary demands to overthrow this reactionary social system for complete liberation; some even become extremists. To achieve true and complete women’s liberation, a proletarian-style revolution must overthrow the bourgeois patriarchal society. From this perspective, there is fundamentally no such thing as “extreme.” He didn’t respond further, but I may discuss this with him more later. Afterwards, I borrowed this issue from him to read the article in more detail and accidentally came across on page 45 a poisonous article by Chen Jin titled “Mao Zedong’s ‘Passing the Cigarette’ Theory Writing,” which contains a slanderous quote by revisionists falsely attributed to Chairman Mao, defaming mentor Stalin: “Lenin gave his heart to others and treated people equally; Stalin stood on others’ heads giving orders, and his works have this atmosphere.” This is utterly shameless! First, it slanders Chairman Mao; second, they haven’t even read Stalin’s works. What right do these revisionists have to shamelessly smear here?!
Actually, you could also tell him that this woman was deceived, and although she was married, it was not voluntary. Over the years, she endured her husband’s torment, surely including rape and domestic violence, and her money was all taken away. This is what is truly “extreme,” something no one else could tolerate.
Regarding the part related to the article about “The Old Man and the Sea”: 参考阅读：海明威浅谈
Old Nine occupying classes can be seen as a struggle against objective conditions; slacking off is something that can be done if possible. Students certainly have many complaints about behaviors like Old Nine’s, and sometimes they can even oppose them directly, at least refusing to attend class themselves. The second year of high school is a period when school control and oppression are continuously strengthening. When I was in the second half of the second year, as we approached the third year, all aspects of dictatorship were intensifying. There was a female political Old Nine who monopolized our PE class to gather everyone together. At that time, many people were very dissatisfied, and I really couldn’t stand it when she directly asked, “Why?” She initially said, “Anyone who asks ‘why’ again will be kicked out,” but later I told her that she was occupying the class without reason, and that those unwilling to attend her class could go to PE class freely as usual, and she then agreed. Afterwards, her speech became trembling, and she said in a trembling voice that the teachers didn’t force you to do anything, and if you want to go, just go.
Psychology classes are extremely hypocritical; I only had a few sessions in the first year of high school. After that, due to the school’s need to increase control and academic pressure, they were canceled. These psychology Old Nine serve as campus pastors in the school, promoting subjective idealism and other methods to address mental health issues, avoiding mentioning the school’s oppression and persecution, always telling you to think from a different perspective, etc. If someone believes their sweet words and makes an appointment to talk in the psychology room, they can only be deceived even more, just speaking to the pastor through the door.
I don’t know what this “Special Focus” magazine is; is it a publication provided by the school? Usually, if the school provides newspapers, the only one that offers relatively good and abundant information is “Reference News.”
Newspapers are not provided at school, and even in stores, there are only monthly magazines. If you want to watch TV news, it is only available for a short time at noon, and sometimes it is even replaced by sports events; the “Special Focus” program features the Hubei Daily from Zhongxiu, which is not a school newspaper publication. The school does have publications, but they are more like an annual yearbook.