Here I will further elaborate on my questions and ideas, but due to class, it will be relatively slower.
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As described by the swamp soldier, indeed, after high school, my father and I developed quite a few shared interests. For example, last year I desperately demanded to go abroad to avoid the third year of high school, which also exploited his own regret of not being able to study abroad. Fearing that poor performance in PE would affect my college entrance exam and lead to my leaving home, I asked my family to get a fake medical record from a big hospital, which hit their hearts. In fact, all of this was even something I actively did myself! For the principle of a pig’s butt badge, I was willing to give up everything for face. After realizing this, thinking about the current issue of taking leave, from his attitude of refusing in every way, it’s clear that the contradiction between us is still the same as before. He just can’t force me to study directly to maintain this disgusting father-son relationship, but instead uses a soft approach, pretending to be understanding and empathetic to my problems, then offering some “advice,” taking advantage of my soft-hearted attitude towards family.
But in terms of the intensity of the contradiction, it is indeed much smaller. I think it can be used to gain study time and transform myself. However, its deception is also very significant. If my mental state is poor, I can easily be tricked and陷进去, after all, I still have a lot of individualism internally, and my cognition is still seriously empiricist. Therefore, how to utilize it and how to guard against it have become major issues.
By the way, what university can you go to now based on your academic level?
One book. But in fact, my parents’ expectations for me are far beyond what I mentioned in my self-introduction of being double first-class. Although they always used a heavy-handed approach with me before, my way of resisting was to not oppose or implement their orders, which made them extremely angry. Therefore, they also realized the truth that it’s easy to break the mountain bandits but hard to break the bandit in the heart, and now they also act as experienced people to reason with me, taking advantage of my psychology of yielding to soft and resisting hard.
Do you have any study plan yourself, what kind of books are you reading?
Start by reviewing the basic must-read materials like the outline of dialectical materialism. I had little exposure to social news before and rarely thought independently. This re-study will bring many gains.
It should be used with the Outline of Marxist Philosophy, and the Outline of Materialist Dialectics has also been edited.
It’s broken, a big joke. Today I finally realized that my parents are only considered a heavily bourgeoisized worker aristocracy at most, and can’t really be considered bureaucrats. It’s bad, it’s bad… I used to only focus on the fact that they work in government agencies, indulge in luxury, and have decayed ideas, without thinking carefully that they also occasionally work overtime because of the economic downturn and lack of work. This has really become a big problem.
My theoretical level and style are truly inferior compared to everyone else. I am even lazy about investigating trivial matters, indulging in idealism nonsense. I only focus on academic issues related to my parasitic life, and I haven’t properly discussed my own pleasures until now, which is really muddled.
I feel utterly ashamed of myself now.
After that, there should be more investigations. If you speak like this, we won’t clearly understand your father’s specific position and economic situation at once.
He is the leader of the drawing review center. Due to the high technical requirements of this department, the total number of personnel outside the system plus those inside the system is only a little over ten. He is also an expert in the construction industry, with skills that are well-regarded outside our system as well. His overall ability is very strong. Often, he can finish a work in just one morning during work hours, and he frequently sneaks out to participate in local monopolistic real estate companies’ bidding processes to earn extra income or to give advice to project managers within those companies. He often boasts about these activities to me. The reason I changed his classification to ‘gong gui’ (工贵, a term for a skilled worker) is based on these circumstances, especially since the real estate market has recently started to warm up, and his workload has increased.
As for my mom, I don’t know much about her yet. She is responsible for administrative work in the Health Commission and is a deputy director.
Recently, looking down at books for a long time gave me a stiff neck. I remember Luo Ronghuan organized and compiled a small dictionary of political science, right? I’m quite interested, but I can’t find it.
Not sure
When I was reading a concise history of Chinese philosophy, I thought of the debate between Su Wu and Li Ling. How should I analyze this?
Elaborate on your problem
Has Su Wu always been regarded as a loyal minister? Correspondingly, in the historical materials I have encountered so far, Li Ling’s reputation is not good. I am wondering if this is influenced by Confucian loyalist ideas? (I suddenly thought of this while reading, please forgive any unclear expression.)
I’m also wondering if this is related to the Confucian black route in the Book of Han? Because the materials about Li Ling I mostly got from there. I saw some of Wang Fuzhi’s discussions on this issue when I was working on Chinese test papers, but my impression is not deep.
You haven’t explained this clearly either. What exactly do you want to ask? Is it why Li Ling’s historical image is not good? Because he surrendered to the Xiongnu.