Today, when I was talking to my father on the phone, I explained that I wanted to go straight to work in a factory after graduating from high school without attending college. But my father completely rudely refused, saying that since I am a parasitic petty bourgeoisie and have wasted so much money in the past, I should get out and fend for myself, not waste his money. Then, my father said I am “idle and unlearned, think knowledge is useless, perform poorly in school, can’t even grasp basic knowledge, and dare to talk about social ideological reform” (those things used to pass exams are also called knowledge?!). A bunch of toxic words like “no matter how the country is, it is always better than before,” “I belong to the Chinese nation” (big national chauvinism, productivity-only theory, opportunistic wealth ideas, etc.) were thrown at me. No matter what reason I used, he wouldn’t listen, only using self-deceiving words like “your thoughts are not mature yet, you have been poisoned by others,” “you haven’t even seen it yourself, why are you fantasizing here!” to oppress me (your poison isn’t light either!). Then he started talking about his selfish views, saying “what does exploitation in society have to do with me?” But because he wanted to win me over and focus my attention on opportunistic studies, he also said that my thinking is good, but now I “think reading is useless,” which he cannot tolerate, demanding that I must focus on my studies and only study Marxism as a hobby. He also said that once I mature, he won’t care anymore (fat chance! By then, I would have long been addicted to opportunistic studies and unwilling to revolution). To avoid his despotic suppression (beating and hitting), I had to soften and submit to him. He ordered me to write a timetable and a self-criticism, to call back tomorrow, and then dropped the matter.
Additionally, I want to mention something I haven’t talked about: our bourgeois “relatives.”
This refers to my aunt and uncle, both of whom are bourgeoisie and currently live elsewhere (my father is there too). My aunt is my father’s sister; she became a bureaucrat through the Zhongxiu government exams at the beginning of the century and is now a department-level official. My uncle is a senior executive at a branch of a certain group, with a substantial income. They buy properties and shops with full payment everywhere, and even bought a unit in Guangdong Yangjiang City Center for vacations. They have a son and a daughter, and my cousin studies at the best bourgeois school locally. His parents want him to study medicine so they can get involved in the local healthcare system (besides that, they have connections in all bureaucratic fields). My cousin, now in fourth grade, often bullies me when I visit their home (because I seem more honest). Since my family’s bourgeois grandfather passed away and my father became a petty bourgeoisie, aside from my father working as a small electrician and computer repairman and my grandmother’s pension, we often rely on help from my aunt and uncle. Last year, my father couldn’t find work locally, so he sought help from them. They helped my father open a small supermarket this year, and in his self-introduction, my father is called the “small shop owner,” referring to this supermarket. My father often interacts with my aunt and uncle there, even staying at their house, and is influenced by bourgeois ideas.
Comrades! How should I resist my father’s bourgeois dictatorship in the future? I personally do not want to go to university; I want to go straight into a factory after high school to reform myself and prepare for the revolution as soon as possible.
