Since I started engaging with forums, I have not consistently maintained a serious stance of resistance and criticism against bourgeois reactionary literature and art, especially the two-dimensional (2D) pornographic literature. In fact, I did not pay enough attention to ideological struggle and did not persistently uphold it. Often, it was only when significant ideological problems had already affected normal activities that I suddenly realized the need for self-criticism. When my state slightly improved and I felt better, I would slack off again, resulting in the reappearance of ideological problems. Because of this, I have never truly severed ties with 2D pornographic literature, and my pornographic thoughts have never been eradicated.
In reality, my pornographic thoughts are very serious. In everyday communication with others and even at work, I frequently become distracted, absent-mindedly recalling and savoring various reactionary literature and art I have encountered, especially 2D pornography. Among these things I recall and savor, what I care about most and find hardest to let go of are the images of underage female characters and yandere literature, which are actually connected as one in my mind. That is to say, although these characters are clearly underage females, in bourgeois 2D literature and art, they possess extraordinary, transcendent powers beyond reality, and remain “faithfully devoted” to a “weak” male, “loving” him to the point of life and death, even resorting to imprisonment, abuse, and other violent coercive methods to force male obedience, crazily developing into physical relationships, and claiming this is a woman’s intense “love” for a man. But in fact, how could this be true?! In reality, under the social conditions of the revisionist society, women’s status is low. Capitalist patriarchal Confucian ideology is rampant, causing many proletarian petty-bourgeois underage females, whose worldview is still immature and who have been influenced by reactionary literature and art, to deceive themselves. Even after being deceived, physically exploited, and abandoned by men, they still convince themselves that the man no longer “loves” them because they are not good enough or pretty enough, rather than realizing the man never loved them from the start and only sought them as dirty sexual tools to satisfy his pornographic desires! After this, they still believe that developing a physical relationship is true “love,” and continue to be deceived and exploited by men, forced to do painful and hateful things without respect or equality, while consuming this distorted narrative as a spiritual opiate called “love.” Ultimately, they are either violently harmed or driven to suicide by men. Fu Yuehua is a bloody example of this!
The reactionary 2D works I like, which portray underage females as powerful figures who can freely dominate men, undoubtedly invert black and white. They portray the vast majority of female victims, who are often treated as private property by men and subjected to various horrific violent means, as “perpetrators who can oppress and dominate men,” providing men with a false cover that distorts the facts and allows them to exploit women at will. In reality, the vast majority of women from proletarian petty-bourgeois families do not have the economic status to “oppress and exploit” men of the same class. Isn’t it rather the bourgeois petty-bourgeois men, influenced by bourgeois ideology, who oppress and exploit them?
The reason I like such distorted works is that, due to my long-term isolation in my personal world, narrow vision, and petty-bourgeois standpoint, I only thought about finding a younger person I could easily control and dominate, a family slave and sexual tool who would obey me, to live a comfortable and easy life. This led me to identify with the so-called bourgeois set of yandere literature featuring underage female main characters, defending my fascist thoughts of wanting to oppress and dominate women, deceiving myself, and constantly avoiding the struggle against this. I have always been unwilling to let go, speaking Marxist words but in practice moving closer to all exploiters and oppressors!
I must never again be infatuated with such spiritual opiates, never again evade the struggle against pornographic thoughts. To become a true Marxist and Communist, I must not only actively study to improve my abilities but also, in theory and especially in practice, never forget my proletarian selfless stance, break out of selfish and narrow personal circles, unite all oppressed and exploited masses who disagree with me or have differences, and dedicate all my energy to the revolutionary cause!